…and I love my fear. 

I didn’t realize until recently what a long-term relationship I had been building with unconscious fear throughout my whole life – hiding behind masks, not speaking up, and people-pleasing so I would not end up rejected and alone. I hid my true essence adapting to be someone who I was not because fear was unconsciously running my life. I actually stopped living my life because I was so frozen with every move I might make.

Over years of experiencing deep healing processes and evolutionary initiations – like changing jobs and industries and cities and haircuts and partners many times, seeking out various therapies for my own cycles of anxiety and depression, holding leadership positions and founding companies in my professional work life, retiring from “working” and entering into a life of practice and passionate service, traveling around the world alone immersing myself in cultures different from what I grew up in, exploring what it means to live in community, working with sacred plant medicines, expanding to a fuller expression of my sexuality, leaving everything behind to live out of a backpack twice (currently living out the second time I chose this) – I’ve come to build a conscious relationship with fear.

I live now inside the fires of transformation, in an ongoing process of unlearning, dying, rebirthing, and experimenting with the new life I feed myself with the ashes created through these cycles. I’ve trained to cut myself, others, and organizations, open – emotionally and energetically – with my clarity and ability to see the collection of parts that make up the whole, AND that thing behind the thing; the essence that is blocked by layers built up from years of unconscious fears, numbed feelings, unspoken words, and abandoned desires.

As a certainty breaker, I hold space for projects and people to enter a deep vacuum where we navigate to that inside which most wants to come out. I maintain the pressure of the containers I hold for the diamond that is the true nature to be refined, exposed, and shine bright in the world.

My personal journey of healing and transformation, along with my vast and varied organizational leadership experience, has led me to develop a deep love for holding space for organizations and people to navigate and embrace transitioning into a more Alive, Aligned, and Authentic expression of what they want to create.